tonight I can write the saddest lines

everything I wanted isn't everything I have

18 August 1985
External Services:
  • ersatz_amber@livejournal.com
"I used to be a hopeless romantic. I am still a hopeless romantic. I used to believe that love was the highest value. I still believe that love is the highest value. I don't expect to be happy. I don't imagine that I will find love, whatever that means, or that if I do find it, it will make me happy. I don't think of love as the answer or the solution. I think of love as a force of nature— as strong as the sun, as necessary, as impersonal, as gigantic, as impossible, as scorching as it is warming, as drought-making as it is life-giving. And when it burns out the world dies."
1940's, accepting my nerdom, air quotes, anne sexton, art, b-boys, bad love, ballroom dancing, being so scene, being soliloquy girl, believing in happy endings, big love, black and white photography, black nail polish, broken hearts, calla lilies, car dancing, cherry blossoms, classy broads, coffee, coloring books, comedy, confessions, crushing, daydreaming, dead pockets, depth perception issues, disney movies, divine intervention, drag queens, drama, emotional purging, film, fogie love, foreign films, frenemies, geekjoy, getting my learn on, good conversation, great food, guilty pleasures, heartache, hippies, history, hobo hair, homancing, honesty, hot chocolate, idiot jed, irony, jane magazine, jewish boys, journaling, karaoke, konstantine, literature, living the nun lifestyle, london, long walks on beaches(ha), loud music, love letters, love songs, mad libs, making bitches look bad, making documentaries, making love not war, making out, making ridiculous faces, mistakes, modeling, movies, new york, occupational guess who, old hollywood glamour, oversize sunglasses, pablo neruda, painting, paris, phone tag, photography, player hating, poetry, pretty ladies, pro-choice, procrastination, rainy days, reading, real detroit weekly horoscopes, recess, religion, self-actualization, shiva, sk3, sleeping all day, smiling's my favorite, spatially challenged individuals, spending time with family, starbucks java chip frappucinos, stars, swallows, texting, the detroit lean, the drama mafia, tiaras, veiled hats, voting, women's rights, writing, yehuda amichai, yiddish